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Saturday, October 22, 2005

How long has it been since I last posted something happie...? I wonder... Anyway... Aside from my 15th birthday 2 years ago... I think this birthday is the most memorable.Pri 1.. Pri 2.. Pri 3.. all the way until Sec 4, hmmm. Other than Sec 3, I don't even remember anything. And I've become accustomed to keeping silent about my birthday. Well... it didn't realli matter to me one way or another...

In school, I got ambushed without warning. There was a lovely and sweet card with many nicey people writing many many nicey stuff. =] And.. well.. someone unexpected signed there too. Made mi realli happie. Lots of thanks to the person who went around with the card getting people to write on it! Considering I'm always nasty to her because she's ==> female <== and all, yet she went out of her way to do the card for me and... bought me a nice FMA artwork book too. Sigh, make mi feel guilty only. I'm... still realli happie though!

And then we have Mr Weng. With a special personal card. "When the seagulls... follow the trawler... it's because they think... sardines will be thrown into the sea -Eric "The King" Cantona" followed by "May your future endeavors be like the seagull, constantly following the trawler for the sardine." Well, yeah. Thanks a lot man. That's half sarcas by the way heh.

And.. there was guitar club. Oh man. I thought I was going to scrape through already. I had already survived all the way to dismissal. DISMISSAL!!!! "Hey everyone tomorrow is Benjamin's birthday let's all sing happie birthday song okay??????"

So says the almighty president Karen and then... oh man. She blocked the exit and prevented my perfect escape from the front door. Sobs! And they started singing. *wails* and it was finished! I thanked them and took 1 step towards the door. "Chinese version!" THE MISERYYYYYYYYYYY~~~~~!!!!! And it started all over again. Hurray... but.. hehe.. it felt.. nice. To have people actually acknowledging my existence, being happie for me, taking me as a part of them. I've never realli had that kind of feeling until SDA and since SDA. Right now.. I have many many nice friends around me.. I'm truly, really grateful.

And we have the memorable birthday wishes!!!
1st Prize - Xiaowei
- sent me an sms at 22/10 at 22:10!! Well, 22:09:54 to be exact. But only 6 seconds off!! I'm realli... touched. Honestly. Thanks jie!
2nd Prize - Edwin
- WITH THE LOVELY BEAUTIFUL FREEDOM GUNDAM POSTER!!! MUHAHAHAHA
3rd Prize - ****
- nothing much realli, but well, it's just... maybe I'll keep it to myself.
4th Prize - THE WENG
- When the seagulls follow the trawlers, it's because they think that sardines will be thrown into the sea.
5th Prize - Sarah
- With the traditional 12 exactly No. 1 wishing!! And falling asleep on the keyboard 3 times ++ from 11 to 12!!!!!!!!! Thanks a lot~~

Now the erm.. not so happie ones. The two... that aren't friends anymore. Hell. One didn't even care. Which is good! The other... mailed me... and well. It tore. Admittedly, I was sort of.. happie though. But I've decided for myself already. I won't cross paths with either of them anymore. Never again will I. Whatever I think, whatever I feel, whether it's happiness... sadness... anger... I'm keeping it to myself.

Actual day happie bdae wishes in order :
Sarah No 1~~~!, Weng, Cheryl, Han Wei, Edwin, Jia Ying (hey, I finall remembered your name, though you'll never be here to read this), Victor, Xiaowei, Yihui, Brian
Thanks to all!

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有无法控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难
想切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
谁说眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
woh~生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的
你拿走的一切
还爱你带一点恨
还有时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐
祝我生日快乐
还爱你带一点恨
还有时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕幻灭重生
祝我生日快乐...

Admittedly.. I still have some regrets, but still, I don't think any of the happiness I'm feeling now is fake. Not when I have so many friends who actually care now. Before... I trusted no one.. I couldn't trust anyone.. that feeling became even stronger throughout sec 3... until I came across SDA. Things happened, it was a change for the better... however that too was short-lived. And I became even more anti-social. I guess that's like... me. But right now... I feel that I could open up more. Even if it's just a little.. to these people.

he yawned again at 12:02 AM