Apotheosis of evil. I'm a baptised christian who doubts the existence of God.
An avatar of anti-socialism who doesn't fit anywhere in humanity.
I'm tired and lonely... the world is meaningless to me... I want to be forgiven for my sin against someone
very dear. Yet that someone has become a mere memory, no longer an existence in my life.
Endless lament... sorrow... because I was foolish and stubborn.
"I once tried to exploit the darkness within me. But I failed, and it backfired. I was lost in the
darkness, and couldn't find the light."
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It's tough to get back into life.. but at least things are changing for the better. At least I'm studying.. at least I'm doing work.. at least my physics is showing signs of improving.. but somehow I feel I'm just escaping and avoiding the pain.. does it realli work? When I wear myself out completely there's nothing left to do, and my mind wanders where it shouldn't.
I must think of other stuff... my arm is getting better! Now unless I stretch it or twist to the limit it doesn't realli hurt. The odd thing is that it got better after I played tennis. Hmm, it should have worsened but it got better anyways. So this means I should play more tennis then it will heal faster! But meh, because I'm completely green, I sprained my left ankle, and I got hit by a smash last fri. Sigh. Guess I'm clumsy.. oh well. But it's almost healed already so I'm ready to get injured again this friday hahah!
Think happie and farnie stuff man. I saw the lovely guitar I want! Fender Stratocaster! Held by Yngwie Malmsteen in a poster near city hall mrt station. Meh.
Me : I WANT!
Kenny : Er.. go and beat him up and steal it from him.
*both stare at the poster*
Kenny : *points* He will be at Fort Canning!
Me : Right.
And somehow today.. my study spot got invaded by females. What's going on? It was my exclusive study spot, save for Kenny whom I drag along all the time but today all of a sudden.. it's been invaded man! I was studying alone and then my classmate Clare came down...
Me : Er.. what are you doing here?
Her : Study.
Me : Er.. okay...
Then here comes 16.5. YES! YOUUUUU~!!!!
Me : ...what you doing here sia?
16.5 : What, cannot izzit?
Me : Can...
Incursion yet to end. Shortly after Cheryl comes down too.
Me : Why.. are you all infesting in my spot?
Crazy girls. Never understood them man. Even my jie. And the worst one is probably.. her.. sigh. Still dono what she wants.. sob getting depressed again. Should stop here...
he yawned again at 9:47 PM