Apotheosis of evil. I'm a baptised christian who doubts the existence of God.
An avatar of anti-socialism who doesn't fit anywhere in humanity.
I'm tired and lonely... the world is meaningless to me... I want to be forgiven for my sin against someone
very dear. Yet that someone has become a mere memory, no longer an existence in my life.
Endless lament... sorrow... because I was foolish and stubborn.
"I once tried to exploit the darkness within me. But I failed, and it backfired. I was lost in the
darkness, and couldn't find the light."
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Another sleepless night.. at this rate it's going to take a toll on my body. But sometimes I just can't bring myself to get over things. Until now the feeling of being shoved out of someone important's life just like that, without a single word or explanation remains resonating in my heart.. I just hate that feeling.
And worse still, there's so many regrets, so many things I wish I hadn't done, so many things I wish I hadn't said. But even then, I probably wouldn't be happie with the growing distance either... All these feelings are turning me in circles, and I know I'm being an idiot as usual, but once again.. sigh. I'm sorry, I miss you T_T
北风毫不留情
把叶子吹落
坠落的它他选择的逃脱
叶子失去小心
风才感觉寂寞
整个冬天
北风的痛没人能说
我从来没想过
我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错
(从来没有爱过那么认真)
我从那里起飞
从那里降落
多少不能原谅的错
却不能重来过
翻开回忆角落
完美的生活
以为幸福都可以掌握
仔细回味当初那个故事背后
原来是我
犯下从没承认的错
在這少了妳的世界
找不会那些感觉
其实我不想道别
那些过去
~ I want to walk back to where I fell, and start from there ~
he yawned again at 1:55 AM