Apotheosis of evil. I'm a baptised christian who doubts the existence of God.
An avatar of anti-socialism who doesn't fit anywhere in humanity.
I'm tired and lonely... the world is meaningless to me... I want to be forgiven for my sin against someone
very dear. Yet that someone has become a mere memory, no longer an existence in my life.
Endless lament... sorrow... because I was foolish and stubborn.
"I once tried to exploit the darkness within me. But I failed, and it backfired. I was lost in the
darkness, and couldn't find the light."
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I'm a real loser. Even though I'm trying, I never knew that I was being so insensitive and selfish, and that I had been dealing so much damage. And the worst thing is now I don't even remember any of it. I wonder what exactly is wrong with me =(
I looked around in many circles, and the one person who's right for me might be the one that's been the closest to me all these years. I guess I really haven't been trying hard enough at anything. Didn't try to understand, didn't try to be more patient, didn't try to give way. Maybe we were walking too close to each other, I failed to notice so many things. Instead I only felt the distance which, perhaps wasn't really there. I hope it's not too late to salvage things, and I should devote the next 2 years to self-improvement. Then maybe I'd feel ready to make it up to her. I know you didn't mind, but I'm still sorry.
My first night in a while without anyone to sms. Feels really strange.
And a little lonely.
半夜看Cable 的舊電影寂寞好深
像看自己從前從前的幸福和愚蠢
電影裡主角回頭的淚痕那淚痕
忽然好想舊情人的柔軟雙唇
人一輩子常常只有只有一次緣份
錯過就再也遇不到那麼好的人
於是心裡不時飄浮暖暖那個吻
從此能付出的情愛也不完整
不自禁找尋很像她的情人
但是沒有誰有像她的靈魂
舊愛還是最美
美的东西往往太早枯萎
後悔時的淚水
又特別讓人覺得無力疲憊
舊愛還是最美
有時分手不是誰負了誰
兩個對的人
卻在錯的時候愛了一回
Labels: Reflection
he yawned again at 11:09 PM