Apotheosis of evil. I'm a baptised christian who doubts the existence of God.
An avatar of anti-socialism who doesn't fit anywhere in humanity.
I'm tired and lonely... the world is meaningless to me... I want to be forgiven for my sin against someone
very dear. Yet that someone has become a mere memory, no longer an existence in my life.
Endless lament... sorrow... because I was foolish and stubborn.
"I once tried to exploit the darkness within me. But I failed, and it backfired. I was lost in the
darkness, and couldn't find the light."
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It has been a nightmare of a two weeks.
Feeling really tired. Another group assignment done alone. This one was a nightmare... I got stunned several times over the course over it. There were two topics... and I thought I'd do the 1st topic, which is an essay since it's more open ended and I have more ideas on how to get about doing it.
The first stunner was that it was a dumb GROUP PROJECT. Immediately my thoughts were oh no. Another solo performance? Oh well. The second stunner came in the form of a 'disclaimer'. STUDENTS WILL BE REQUIRED TO ANSWER BOTH THE QUESTIONS ANSWERED BELOW.And I thought to myself... alright, I guess I won't be able to handle this alone then.
So I gave my two teammates a very simple instruction. 'I'll handle the 1st topic. Go find out for me a company to work on, and a list of all the departments they have.' Pretty straightforward isn't it? I told them that like 2 weeks ago... more than that actually. And on tuesday, 3 days before the submission deadline, I have received the following from the two of them.
1. A list of possible departments of AN ENTIRE INDUSTRY
2. A company BALANCE SHEET
3. A company INCOME STATEMENT
4. A company CASH FLOW STATEMENT
5. A project on ANOTHER MODULE
6. A bunch of textbook statements that had nothing to do with any company
Yeah, well, hmmm. What the hell was I supposed to do with all those? It was nothing less than a nightmare. The first 5 were nothing less than useless. That was stunner number 3 aka Le Horrors. I had to enlist the aid of another friend to help me get details from a company he's working at. He replied in one day, with information on each department's functions as well. That's a work rate of more than 1000% of those 2 buggers. And so I worked and worked and worked. And I was so tired. I was thinking I should just trust the textbook answers given to me... but something bothered me, so I took a sentence and googled it. TO MY HORRORRRR AGAINNNN!!! PERFECT MATCHES SPAWNED!!! And I embarked on another journey to REWRITE EVERYTHING. And finally. On thursday 3pm or so... I finally finished writing. By then I was lazy to read through everything to do editing. I just wanted to submit it at night. And the last of horror chronicles. When I went for class for another module, I realized that I was the only group that was submitting on that day.
-_-!!!
Oh well. It's over. I can rest a little over this weekend. But sigh. Maybe I got too numb and used to being alone for the last 2 years. Suddenly opening up to others... or rather, returning to the way I used to be... it makes me feel so strange. And the feeling of loneliness keeps coming now. Especially when everybody in class is all buddy buddy sister sister with each other. It never really bothered me, but now that the sms source is kinda closed up all of a sudden, it's starting to hit me.
Labels: Random Ramblings
he yawned again at 12:18 AM